christmas day at home

2day merry christmas..but i no celebrate this festival..stay at home..feel so good..but a bit bored..

boring boring boring!!!!

damn bored~~~~~

sigh..

Tomorrow maybe I will hang out with Christine them..don’t know success or not..i hope we can have a enjoyable day tomorrow..Saw can’t go ready..he sprained his leg..so careless..never mind la,I also no want to meet him again..truely..sigh..

~~In the year 2010~~

~~In the year 2010~~

I HATE my family but I LOVE my family.

This situation is very contradictory..

I hate baby sister cry..

Damn hate it!

I hate my brother because he like play ball in the living room!

Why he like that one??!!

No make progress.. and very childish..

Next year you form 4 already le!

My goodness, what the sense??!!

Next is my form 1 sister, why she always stuck inside my bedroom??!!

Is our family member make you feel uncomfortable?

Or you like be alone all the time at home??

And my dearest form 5 sister,

I know now you are taking SPM,

But I hope you won’t always disturb me okay?

I am bored to see and read your exam paper!!!

U know??!!please don’t ask me again for mark your question paper!!

You go find your school teacher okay?

School teacher allow you to ask questions right??!

Why you like to ask me???

I LOVE my family..

I love parents..especially my daddy..

Thanks a lot for always support me regardless my mom no agree..

I love my mom too..

Although she always scold me and force me do this do that..

I know whatever you do is for me good..

I KNOW..

Sometimes, I reply defiantly to you because you make me feel you are wrong..

Please forgive me ya..

Although you always make decision for me, like force me going to form 6,I not odd you..

You wanna give me to increase more knowledge..

I KNOW..

I love my eldest sister..

You always care about me..

Any problem I can find her to discuss together..

That why I admire her..

And you are my idol in my heart..

It is true regardless you trust or not..

In the year 2010, I want to appreciate all the things that the god give me..god give me a full family, all friends and also learn new things such as attending nasional service and so on..thanks everyone for accompany me walk finish in this year.. I LOVE you all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Here some photo in the year 2010 that I took~~~~~~~~~~~~~~`

~Me and my sisters with the couple cousin~

~my ns place ~ so miss it~

~pangkor trip with my dearest family~ on 1 may 2010 (Labour day)

~a new look of me in Chinese new year 2010 ~

Year 2010 will end soon!!

Year 2011, I am waiting for you and GLAD to MEET you soon..

BYE……………

By:candy

29/11/2010 (Monday)

Tanjung Karang..

yesterday deepavali..
today i went to my grandmother house at Tanjung Karang..
grandmother treat me and my sister eat..
a enjoyable day with her..
besides, same of my cousin will wedding next month..
i haven prepare my dinner dresses..
hehe..
other than that,today was a graduation i year anniversary..
i no attend because i no have transport..
nobody can fetch me go..
and my distances is so far from the venue that they meet..
or in other say i am mo sham..=='..
now about 1am morning..
i cant sleep..
hope i can enjoy my life now..
that what can i do..
say about the genting trip that my ns friends plan before..
i think i maybe will attend if i have enough money..
seriously now i out budget ready..
sigh..
and if christine them got attend, i sure will attend..
but the problem is we no have transport to go to genting highland..
if take the genting bus,it is dangerous..
i scare when i read the news about bus fell down back from genting..
if they want to fetch us go,i also fear..
because they all same age with me and all of them are new license..
my mom sure will not let me out with them..
i no want my mom worry about me too..
so must i must rasional to make a decision..

okay lar..late ready..
just stop here..
good night and sweet dream..

by:candy

每一次在家都有想哭的欲望，我真的很不行…眼泪夺眶而出…控制不住…问我原因，我不会告诉你…这是我和妈妈之间的勾结…想出门深怕回到家门前有被碎碎念…二来有需要开销…不懂该如何是好…长这么大了，每件事都需要你CONTROL，我真的很辛苦…I NEED FREEDOM,你懂不懂？这是我迟迟不交男朋友的其中一个原因…爱我的人必须经过我妈的那一关…会很累…没办法，试问谁可以帮我挑战这个难关？

after exam..

today is Wednesday..

start holiday for Hari Deepavali !!!

but i feel bored at home..

what should i do now?

i know i should do correction of the exam paper..

but if i do myself,i can't do it well..

so i need group study..

but my mom not allow me outing with my friends..

because last week almost full day i not at home..

i do revision with my friends..

this few day,after exam i feel relax!!!

and i have a lot of friends accompany me in my form 6 life!!

thanks all of you!!

yesterday i score 24/30 in my economics subject!!

so excited when i get the result!!

always listen adult say STPM is hard and difficult to face it..

now i only know we must study smart to do it well..

then i have not regret anymore..

i was success to face it!

at here i want thank Grey Chen help me in my studies..

thank you for teaching me and do revision with me and li zih,and also pui wen..

thank you very much..

i hope our friendship will last forever!!

besides,i want find a part time work..

because now i out budget ready..

i need the salary to buy my Chinese new year's clothes..

i no want depend my mom to give me pocket money..

i want learn independence like in national service life..

okay..

just stop here..

my time is limited..

and my younger sister make noise again..

sigh..

by:candy

good luck to all of you!

UNLESS-candy

in a bad mood!!!argh..............
my youngest sister make noise!!!
and she was crying!!!cant stop!!!
i hate baby crying!!!
and mu mom was not at home!!!
the serious factor!!!mom and daddy go a dinner wedding right now...
they seldom outing together..this is the chance me and sisters give to my parents "dating"..^^
but me and my sister all dunno how to take care the youngest sister as well!!!
i wanna call my mom back now,but i refuse to do that!
i no wan my mom worry about us..
is my fault..dunno how to take care sister..
i punished her!!if i dint do like that,she will not stop crying..
other than punished her,i dunno what should i do!!!
i was UNLESS...

besides,i have exam tomorrow..
but then,i haven touch my book and do revision..
sigh..i know i suppose to revision my pengajian am..
but i was failing to do that..
fail to manage my time table,and so on..
i was playful in school..
start from next year, no more playing in class and lazy...
i promise it!
i will done my STPM well...
gambateh!!!

about my studies..

in a bad mood now..
cause my mom..
skip it,don't want talk about her..
besides,i have speaking test tomorrow..
i feel nervous about two period today while muet class..
teacher want test us as random..
sigh..
tomorrow i will try my best to do it well!
i promise that..
good luck for myself..^^

apart from that,next week i have exam..
sigh..because i haven prepare..
see me online every day..
Monday i have pengajian am test..
i think i fail lor..
i dunno the parlimen all this thing...
omg..who can explain to me about the syllabus ...


by:candy

exam coming..

Sunday again..stay at home..
nervous..exam next week..
speaking test is coming..
must put more effort in my studies..
i no want fail..
good luck to me and all the best..


by:candy^^

watch a movie

today i go watch a movie after school..
a happy ending movie..
i feel sleepy at class today..
sigh..

by:candy
good 9..Zzzzzzzzz........

sad..

today still rest..
actually yesterday i quarrel with my mom..=(
so tat my mood was not good!
besides,my youngest sister always make noise!
i can't tahan her!!
she very naughty and love to cry!
sometimes i want to stop her..
but i can't do tat cos my mom very love her!


by:candy
*sad*

bored at home..

mom no allow me out..
she no wan me waste money..
tat i know..
but i bored at home..
nothing to do now..
sigh..
i done reading newspaper,homework and housework..
what else can i do now?

by:candy
*bored*

activities today

activities today:
reading,sleeping,eating,do revision,online.

super free!

today super free!
and bored!

bah kut teh~

today,bowling again...wakaka...
and i have bah kut teh as my lunch..
today so happy can eat bah kut teh with u all..
thanks all of yours..
while eating,i suddenly think about u..
because i never forget u say wan eat bah kut teh with me de..
haha..it's ok..i think u joke only gua..
klang bah kut teh very delicious..
i like it!
thanks to the people who create bah kut teh..
cos i feel very hang fu when eat it...^^

很好,那种feeling不见了。
我就是我！^^
加油！candy~~

打bowling

我睡不着觉,所以又偷偷起来online啦。哈！
你懂今天我第一次去打bowling,有几爽吗？
在打保龄球的时候，你懂我的脑袋突然想起谁吗？
就是你咯~真的很想和你一起玩~

What the definition of a friend???

I am waiting for your confirmation….
I wan be your friend…
Why you no want accept me?
Why?
Give me reason…..
Don’t forget in primary school,I became your best friend..
Now you got wing ready..
You can fly..
I knew that…
But we had know each other before..
Our friendship about six year…
Why you can so cruel???
I am not your friend???
I really get angry with you!!!
Let it pass!!!
Cool down…….
What the definition of a friend???
*think* properly…
Answer: I don’t know!!!

我就安心了

不懂怎么搞的,心情很down…
怎么也开心不起来。
在班上的我是每天开开心心的，在家的我会比较忧虑一些。
因为太空闲了，我会胡思乱想。
我想要每天都认自己忙，可是我怕会累坏自己的身体，
这么做很不值得，对不对？
又怕自己累，又怕太空闲，我觉得自己真的很矛盾~
今天在学校看到X，好开心。
因为我真的很久没看到X了。
在下课的时候，怎知X就站在我的斜左边，
我只专心吃东西，一面看X，完全没和我的朋友们聊天。
看到X还在，我就安心了。

另一方面，
看到Y还有动静，我就安心了。

By:candy

我就安心了

不懂怎么搞的,心情很down…
怎么也开心不起来。
在班上的我是每天开开心心的，在家的我会比较忧虑一些。
因为太空闲了，我会胡思乱想。
我想要每天都认自己忙，可是我怕会累坏自己的身体，
这么做很不值得，对不对？
又怕自己累，又怕太空闲，我觉得自己真的很矛盾~
今天在学校看到X，好开心。
因为我真的很久没看到X了。
在下课的时候，怎知X就站在我的斜左边，
我只专心吃东西，一面看X，完全没和我的朋友们聊天。
看到X还在，我就安心了。

另一方面，
看到Y还有动静，我就安心了。

By:candy

I scare now..nervous..cos the feel was disappear slowly..i very scare..i wan the feeling..so sweet one.. but without the feel good for me too..i can more concentrate at class..

in down mood..
dunno whyyyyyy?
*think*
him..
forget slowly..
sometimes..
remember again..
half half..
3 months..
time make forget xxx slowly..
i no want to forget..
cos i love xxx..
i scared..
but if not forget xxx,
hurt myself only..
so,how???
i no wan make myself so bekcek..
i just wan happiness..
or i wan find somebody to LOVE???
to full my time table..
so tat i no have extra time to more and more...
i wan make myself busy and busy..

sunday..lonely..
although got homework..
but i lazy to touch it..
because i am so tired..
this week i go to school for 6 days already..
super tired!!!
now take a rest to..
continue blogging..
hehe..

Saturday..school day..cos no wan late to school..take bus in early morning..although yesterday i had wedding dinner.. About 11: 30pm back home..today still go to skul..hardworking.. I admire myself..maybe in skul i have many friends..so i like go to skul..in my life, i have a lot of friends..but in different standard..i make different friends..who was sincere to me i know..

i no want to offline...
i feel pain..
why i like that one?
wait,wait,wait,and wait...
tired..
*sad*
add oil!!!
don't give up!

吃得苦中苦，方为人上人。

那番话怎么好象我有说过啊？
是我想太多吗？？？

转话题，
从今天起我不必搭巴士去学校了！！！
好开心！！！
朋友终于开车载我们去读书了！！！
这是我读书以来蛮开心的一件事了！！！
谢谢你哦。。。。XD
你让我告别了搭巴士的生活。。。。
吃得苦中苦，方为人上人。
终于相信这番话。。
妈妈，谢谢您每天陪我等巴。。。
这次，不用了，
您可以睡迟一点了。。。
不必每天和我一起早早起。
我想告诉您：我不后悔读中六了。。。
还有谢谢你们---朋友们的鼓励让我有勇气继续我的读书旅程！！！
谢谢你们，我爱你们！！！！


by:candy^^

my dearest mom

Just for my dearest mom..
Love you so much..
You are best mom in the world..
Every time I faced any problem..
You can help me to solve the problem..
Here I want to tell you..
Tell you that I love you..
You always care about me..
I know actually..
But sometimes,I reply defiantly with you..
And I want say sorry to you at here..
Sorry for my selfish..
I feel very happy because have a mom like you..

From:your second daughter(candy)
*love*

my dearest mom

Just for my dearest mom..
Love you so much..
You are best mom in the world..
Every time I faced any problem..
You can help me to solve the problem..
Here I want to tell you..
Tell you that I love you..
You always care about me..
I know actually..
But sometimes,I reply defiantly with you..
And I want say sorry to you at here..
Sorry for my selfish..
I feel very happy because have a mom like you..

From:your second daughter(candy)
*love*

my dearest mom

Just for my dearest mom..
Love you so much..
You are best mom in the world..
Every time I faced any problem..
You can help me to solve the problem..
Here I want to tell you..
Tell you that I love you..
You always care about me..
I know actually..
But sometimes,I reply defiantly with you..
And I want say sorry to you at here..
Sorry for my selfish..
I feel very happy because have a mom like you..

From:your second daughter(candy)
*love*

now about 11:30pm..
just wake up from sleep..
because my room too hot..
besides i am sick now..
i cant take a well sleep..
my throat ache again..
just now back from shah alam..
i find many interesting places..
like the places so much..
next time i sure will ask my friends go there..
if i get a boyfriend,i also will choose there as my relationship places..
very nice..
love it!!!
i no want always just watch a movie..
i like natural!

病了，整RM100的药吃没完…我就是不喜欢吃这些毒品…对不起我的父母…浪费你们的钱去看医生…

我的新梦想：到日本看SAKURA（樱花）

不懂什么风吹来

l 不懂什么风吹来~

l 今天大清早就被邀约了~

l 番茄竟然约我出门~

l 还以为他打电话来开玩笑叫我出是开玩笑的~

l 我还不换衣呢!

l 直到他在jalan kapar了，我才相信，才去冲凉~

l 真的很好笑~

l 后来，她又载我回家~

l 还驾大车~真有型~

l 在回家路上又发生了一些小事~

l 希望她能平安到家~

By:candy

gathering？

刚刚在fb post 了些东西。就是我们废材和mca的gathering 啦~
不懂他们会不会出席。其实我好担心又很期待。
希望你们会出席吧。我相信你们~

By:candy

To:青梅竹马的一番话

我很笨啊..看到他放她已嫁给他了通过面子书..还以为他是开玩笑的..刚才给我不小心看到了他好像真的和他走在一起..虽然我不懂她是谁..不过我觉得应该是网恋..她的胸部好大好大..真的..这是不可否认的事实..而他就是我的青梅竹马啦..我还蛮关心的人..希望他不要给她玩弄感情..因为我感觉到她对他不是很真心..有时候我会替他感到担心..我不敢干涉他的事这么多..因为我的妈妈和他的母亲也是好朋友..如果你看得我对你的看法是这样的话..请你不要生气我..ok

切记：不要因为想爱而爱。

关心你的青梅竹马：彩丽上

empty post..

Now about 6:30 morning..
I wake up at 6 o’clock..
Yesterday I was very tired..
But still can’t sleep as well..
Headache in the morning..
I not understand myself so far..
Sigh..
Emo..
Don’t know what should I post now..
Just say good morning to all of my friends..


By:candy.

Bestir oneself..

Tomorrow is hari raya..
But I stay at home..
Not going anyway…
Because I was sick..
Just eat the medicine..
And have a biscuit now..
^^
So miss him suddenly..
How???
Remember yesterday..
On the way back from jusco..
Mom was driving..
And I sit beside her..
And it was raining dog and cat..
I was in the car..
Actually must help my mom to see the road..
Because dangerous when driving in rainy day..
But don’t know why the brain still imagine him..
I very worry about him..
Want know his state at now..
How are him?
Izit fine?
Or stress with his homework?
I don’t know..
Just predict only..
And I think so many thing happened about me and him..
Memories come again..
Although there was a few month ago..
Hope he can smile always and enjoy himself..
And I will find my own happiness..
Don’t depressed..
Bestir oneself..
Candy..


By:candy

Now about 12.00am…
But I still cant sleep..
Still remember they say want come klang for gathering..
But I think just only a dream..
Now is school holiday ready..
I also speechless..
Friendship will not last longer..
Anyway..
Hope you all dream will come true..
Just wish you all at here..


By:candy

Be out of luck..

Today don’t know why..
Be out of luck..
At Ekonomi class,I scoled by Pn.Yap..
Because I saw the a paper that my friends pass to me one..
I know I suppose to read the note that teacher gave us before..
But don’t know why I do other things..
And sit in front of me..
Mr Lim,Mr The,Mr Lee,and Mr Poo also scoled by teacher..
They passed a book by one to another one..
We all five bad bad students were punished to stand for two period during Ekonomi class..
Sigh..
Other than that,
Today account test I don’t know how to do..
Someone please help me..
The topic so difficult..
Don’t know how to count..
Besides,
Just now back home..
No places for me to sit..
So pity..
Stand again for 45 minutes for reach my home..
Aiyoyo..
Bad luck for today!!!

Holiday~~~~
But for me…
Bored….
2 week….
Too long..
==

By:candy

outing with my friends

Today I was outing with my friends after school..
About 2pm,we reached Jusco..
We went for watching a movie..
There was the famous movie titled “Phua Chu Kang”..
And I await this day..
The movie damn funny..
We laughed..
Just ok lor..=)
After that,we had bought sushi….
My fouvorite food..
Long time no eat ready…
Yummy….like it!!!=)
Tired now…
A full day for me and my friends..
Next Monday will go “GREENBOX”…
Await for it!!!
Yeah!!!

By:candy

* tired *

I was grow up slowly...

Today is in the end of August..
National day..
It was public holiday for all of Malaysian..
I stay at home..
And maybe later will accompany my mom go to shopping..
Lets talk about yesterday..
I felt very happy..
Because my account test was better than last month one..
My result was progressive..
This is because I had put more afford in my studies..
Some of my classmate not believe in my result..
Some of them study very hard..
But their result were normal..
I think maybe I always ask teacher when I don’t know how to do..
But my friends no want to ask..
They just ask their friends..
Some of them very selfish one..
They no want teach us..
So I prefer to ask teacher..
Although sometimes I have scored by teacher..
when I ask the same questions..
but I never give up..
I knew that teacher was not feel well with me..
Actually most of us don’t teacher teaching what..
But they scare and shy to ask and some of them prefer go to tuition..
Then I was represent my class to ask teacher lo..
Sigh..
If want to learn and study in form 6..
We must always respect teacher and
when cant do the exercise given by teacher..
Must ask..
Don’t be shy..
All my friends..
I learned confident,brave,responsibility,and cherish someone after NS…
So I no scare and shy anymore in my future..
I was grow up slowly……………

现在的我很不爽！！！

我现在很不爽勒~一旦在家太久我就不能顶!
我的弟弟妹妹很吵!!!!
我很想出去!!!可是不能!!!
没交通!!!
我又生病~
在家较好~
我在家做不到功课!!!
可是我有过在学校完成功课后才回~
结果被妈妈骂了一顿!!!
她讲是因为我不想帮他做家务才特地这么迟回的!!!
的确我不否认这是其中一个原因!!
又怎样?!
去朋友家作功课也是一个错?!
在家你们都不能教我~
所以你们没有资格这么讲我!!!
我很生气!!!
可是又能怎样?!!
我也是乖乖听妈妈的话!!!
最多以后要留校或去朋友家先告诉妈妈咯!
我从来讲不赢妈妈~
唉,生活就是这样咯…

new saturday

today is Saturday..
just finish watching a movie..
“legend”..
Jackie chan perform one..
Interest too..
because I like his movie..
besides..
my guess was totally accurate..
he haven online yet..
==’’..
……
Ermm………
Besides..
Just now I go to clinic for a treat..
Doctor gave me some medicine and the throat candy..
I just eat the sweet only..
I hate medicine..
Haiz..
Anyway..
Must eat..
No more excuse..
“candy,now you are sick…remember..”
Always remind me..
My brain..

Other than that..
I await next Monday..
I want go to entertain myself..
Since going form 6..
Accept busy and busy..
I haven take a good rest for myself..
Next week I want go to cenima and watch many many movie!!!
And i will go greenbox too..
And sing song!!!
Await this too long!!!
Relax(x10000000000000000000000000…)!!!

11 o’clock ready..
Good night and sweet dream to everyone that I had know you….
Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz………………..
Nite……………….

By:candy

我这次彻底生病了

我这次彻底生病了
喉咙痛到讲话都不能开口
早上病得更严重
头痛
发热气
又有一点点咳嗽
早餐只吃面包而已
又不懂作么
生病我也会流泪
好脆弱的彩丽
外刚内柔
可能没有人关心的关系吧
妈也没空关心我
因为还有两岁多的妹妹需要他的照顾
我现在很痛苦
我最讨厌生病了
比起往年
我生病的次数是及少又少的
一年我可以说生病不到五次
不过一旦生病了
就是蛮严重的那种
现在我彻底病了
生病的
彩丽
最不坚强
最不快乐
最傻
最脆弱
因为不懂作么
她会哭~


By:candy

I was sick..
Throat ache..
Cough some more..
This few day damn hot..
I get sick..
Tired..
Less talk..
Prevent my throat ache again..
My dad just buy durians..
My fovourite fruit..
Cannot eat ler..
So pity..
Mom want me drink 100 plus..
Maybe later I will drink lor..
Luckily there are a few day can rest at home..
Public holiday and weekend..
So I can take a enough rest at home..


By:candy

This week,my school Persatuan Persiaran seed the song that related with Hari Kebangsaan..
SEIA SEKATA,SATU MALAYSIA had been seed every day during the recess time..
This song took me back to national service times...........
2 month ago………
cherish memory of ns.........


by:candy

*sad*got a friend like her

Today sad again..
My friend,why you all so reality..
If join me just want take advantage from me..
Now I tell you..
You are not seniority to be my friend!!!
I very very don’t like your temperament!!!
I must far away from you!!!
Do you know I just want be friend with you..
Why you exploit me just for your academic???
I felt very very disappopinted with you!!!
I felt sad got a friend like you!!!
How can you imagine if got a friends join you to take advantage from you???
Really not like right???!!!
Then why you are the person I talk about???
I think you wont be my friend anymore…
I must firm with you..
I know I am stupid and idiot..
Because get a friend like you……..
I will left you slowly and slowly…
You will not be my friend again..

*sad*

By:candy

caught by prefect in assembly..

Today feel sad..
Totally sad..=(
*silent*
Cried at the early morning..
Something happen to me..
Again caught by the stupid indian prefect..
She want me dye back my hair..
Actually I dye black my hair two times already..
Two times for two months..
She asked me:-
“I told you many times..have you dye black your hair?!”
I said:-
“last time you got saw my black become black ready right?!then now my hair want change back gold colour,I no choice one mar!!!”
Then,then indian prefect get angry..
because I reply defiantly to her!!!
She wanted me followed her to see puan Aru(the most fierce disiplin teacher in my school!!!nobody dare to offend her!!!)…
OMG…………………….
At that time,I cant to think anymore..
Just follow her go to see the fierce teacher..
Pn Arn then asked the stupid prefect what wrong with me..
She told everything to teacher lor..
Teacher gave me till this week to dye black my hair..
I tied to explain with her that I have dye it two times ready and if want dye for third times,it will affect my scalp…
But no matter I tried to explain,it was useless….
Sad..
I was capitulate..
Teacher wanted me change another hair saloon if cant dye black the hair..
suddenly my eyes suddenly fill in my tears..
I was cried..


*sigh*
How can I do for my hair now???
Cut it???(love dearly it!!!cant!!!)
Dye black again???(cant!!!if like that,I think it seriously maybe cause head cancer!!!cannot!!! )
Like this cannot,like that olso cannot!!!
How should I do for my hair???