miss + scared

miss my mom so much!
miss my whole family!
cant concentrate in my studies?!
i want to meet them!
study here 2 months and more, first time miss my family member!
maybe i start feel precious..
they are very vital for me!
when i saw my mom lay in the hospital,
my my heart feel pain and pain..
i pretend i am strong in front of her..
i try my best to accompany her..
i try my best to do everything she called me to do..
because i really scare if one day, how she disappear?
how about my life if she leave me and my lovely siblings and daddy?
i really really scared..
i really really upset,
really apologize if i hurt you before,
i will try best to pray for you!!!
hope god bless you!!!!
*SOB*

hope

meeting is an experience .
but i decide this week no more formal meeting for me please!
i am tired!
i need rest!
i was breathless now!

just hope everything will go smooth.
*hope*